true life .

So here we are again . At a road in life where i cant determine weather or not i should turn left , turn right , or just turn around all together . Im hanging by a thread , and sometimes i feel like i cant take another day . I constantly tell myself over and over that im strong . But everything just feels like so much , TOO much . I feel like there is pounds & pounds of cement bricks on my shoulder weighing me down . I hear everyday how much of a strong beautiful person i am . How people admire me , all this . Im grateful . But i still know how much this is . Sometimes i wish it wasnt me . That instead of me looking out , im the one looking in , saying aw im so sorry . I hope all goes well , then go on about my day . It seems easy . But i could never do that . I fight for what i love , and though it drains everything out of me , i still manage to be standing tall at the end of the day . Ive stopped sheding tears ive stopped talking about everything all together . This . . This blog right here , is my only source to speak . And whomever reads it , reads it , i dont give a damn , because this is true life .