springs .

Today i actually decided to go out with the family . . I wasnt a fan of the idea , since we were going to the springs , one for the fact with my injuries i have me & the sun arnt the best of friends , heat is no good , nor is moving around , swimming blah blah . BUT ! I got on a float and just chilled enjoying my time out of the house . I started off negative about the whole thing , but then i thought what the hell , might as well make the best of it . I was SOOO hot ! And kept running out of breath . Luckly the springs have freezing cold water , so it was an equal balance .

Of course , he * was heavy on my mind . Last time we spoke of the springs we were suppose to go together . . Then with that thought in my head the memories started flowing in . Good ones though , they put a smile on my face . Trying to get back to my normal live is going to be difficult . But im trying my best . Trying to hold my head high & see the good in things . Having a positive attitude & thinking positive , will bring positive things to you . I just keep telling myself that . Whatever helps me get through the day i suppose . Alot of people say since the accident , i havent been myself . I know that though . I see alot of changes in me . And as much as i would like to i cant be 100% Kea again . When someone goes through something traumatic its going to take some time , IF it happens , in my case i doubt it . But like i said i make the best out of it . I mean thats the best thing i can do . . . right ?