....

memories of you come back when i hear or see certain things.
i try so hard to forget what you put me through for that whole year of my life.
the year when i was young and decided you wanted to waltz back in like nothing.
then you shake my world upside down and cause me hell.

when i look up at the sky i should be thanking god im living another day.
instead i look up and cry, praying he would take me away.

as i recall you were suppose to be a father.
there is so much i could say to you.
i dont know how you and my mom even knew each other.
how you even spoke.

your pure scum of the earth. do you not see that ?
you feel the need to write me on myspace..
look for me on facebook..

as if nothing ever happened.

you are fucking sick.
maybe it was all the drugs.
who knows either way.

you have my permission to drop fucking dead.

we.

are no longer anything.
its safe to say.
that you.. drifted away.

=(

I've reached my breaking point. I can no longer endure anymore.. Thanks.

.

Hello, My name is KeaKea.

And im afraid of commitment !

Blank.

Today, As I wake up and look out my window.
I realized I lost another friend.

Its sad how life works.
Why do we die so young ?
All of us. And I can name alot of people.
Dre, Mario, Twist, Katina, Tinky, Lickson, Julieanna (My sister), Sabastian, Kenny, Now Amanda.

Its weird.
How people say god would never wish bad upon anyone.
Or put them through pain.

Yet, here I am. Sitting here. Thinking back to all these people.
He allows them into my life only to take them away permenatly afterwards.
Its sad that im starting to get use to it.

In fact. Its horrible.
Someone at my age shouldnt feel how I do.
Or experienced a portion of the stuff I have.

When I see someone hurt in front of me, dying, even dead.
It has no effect on me. How can someone grow use to that ?
It dont even move me anymore...

Im sorry..

R.I.P

Why..

What we use to be.. Does it still matter ?
Do you enjoy putting me through pain ?
Does it give you pleasure ?

Why are you fighting for me ?
How come you got my name tatted ?
How can you cheat on me & still say you love me ?
When you looked into my crying eyes.. Did you feel remorse ?

How come NOW you see im happy withOUT you..
But you NOW you is when you want me back ?

Why did I even fight for you or defend you ?

You make me ill.
Your pathetic.
Burn in hell.

=D

life is GOOD =)

very very satisfied with the ways things are going.

so happy in fact; im at a lost for words !