What we use to be.. Does it still matter ?
Do you enjoy putting me through pain ?
Does it give you pleasure ?
Why are you fighting for me ?
How come you got my name tatted ?
How can you cheat on me & still say you love me ?
When you looked into my crying eyes.. Did you feel remorse ?
How come NOW you see im happy withOUT you..
But you NOW you is when you want me back ?
Why did I even fight for you or defend you ?
You make me ill.
Your pathetic.
Burn in hell.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
=D
life is GOOD =)
very very satisfied with the ways things are going.
so happy in fact; im at a lost for words !
very very satisfied with the ways things are going.
so happy in fact; im at a lost for words !
Monday, September 14, 2009
THAT girl .
we got that waiting in the clinic silence.
that shhh dont tell nobody what we did silence.
you like keeping it quite.
nobody knows you write poems about me,
the type you cant post on facebook about me.
regardless of what you may think im worth or what i deserve.
i will never be that girl who only makes you smile when you orgasm.
that girl; whose day job is day dreaming about her night job.
that girl; who is so in love, will turn her body over for your superficial touch
you hide me behind me locked doors and bed sheets.
because if you dare reach out everyone will know it was still about me.
that in your heart & in your mind your still wrapped up in me.
my tear drops, you own them.
you may say you never loved me.
but you dont have to.
cause the silence speaks for you.
you wanna hold me in your arms & rock me to sleep then act like you dont know me.
as if the moments we spend together
are some kind of down payment.
and my bedroom is lay away. and thats all you do, is layaway.
curl up beside me but in the morning pull up your hoodie & turn the other way.
im like the bastard child. the reason why daddy never stuck around in the first place.
but for me rejection dont come every other weekend.
it comes when you lower your head & pass by without speaking.
and i remember when there was a time you could barely take your eyes off me.
i dont understand why its not okay for you to love me.
i guess; you just want me to be that girl.
that girl everyone wants to sleep with but nobody wants to be with.
that girl, only good enough for finding a suitable replacement.
and not trying to make up for the mistakes.
but you convinced yourself shes your everything & you want nothing to do with me.
but c'mon baby she looks JUST LIKE ME !!!
read the signs or at least the facial features.
cause i was your first; your only.
the prototype & shes just a duplicate.
and you can never make copies without first consulting the blue print.
you know what they say the sequel is never better then the original.
and she tries to write you stories but there only half as good.
you half squinting and you only hold her half as tight as you should.
because ya other half is tangled in my bed seats.
and ya other half is complete within my mind & soul & body.
and ya other half is french toungin' me monday through friday.
im not fighting for joint custody.
im fighting for respect.
because ill never be content with being your back door hoe.
your something on the side. your something to do during lonely nights.
your closet freak. you will never reduce me to a skank or a whore.
& though i love you; id rather spend EVERY night crying on my bedroom floor then to EVER the THAT girl !
that shhh dont tell nobody what we did silence.
you like keeping it quite.
nobody knows you write poems about me,
the type you cant post on facebook about me.
regardless of what you may think im worth or what i deserve.
i will never be that girl who only makes you smile when you orgasm.
that girl; whose day job is day dreaming about her night job.
that girl; who is so in love, will turn her body over for your superficial touch
you hide me behind me locked doors and bed sheets.
because if you dare reach out everyone will know it was still about me.
that in your heart & in your mind your still wrapped up in me.
my tear drops, you own them.
you may say you never loved me.
but you dont have to.
cause the silence speaks for you.
you wanna hold me in your arms & rock me to sleep then act like you dont know me.
as if the moments we spend together
are some kind of down payment.
and my bedroom is lay away. and thats all you do, is layaway.
curl up beside me but in the morning pull up your hoodie & turn the other way.
im like the bastard child. the reason why daddy never stuck around in the first place.
but for me rejection dont come every other weekend.
it comes when you lower your head & pass by without speaking.
and i remember when there was a time you could barely take your eyes off me.
i dont understand why its not okay for you to love me.
i guess; you just want me to be that girl.
that girl everyone wants to sleep with but nobody wants to be with.
that girl, only good enough for finding a suitable replacement.
and not trying to make up for the mistakes.
but you convinced yourself shes your everything & you want nothing to do with me.
but c'mon baby she looks JUST LIKE ME !!!
read the signs or at least the facial features.
cause i was your first; your only.
the prototype & shes just a duplicate.
and you can never make copies without first consulting the blue print.
you know what they say the sequel is never better then the original.
and she tries to write you stories but there only half as good.
you half squinting and you only hold her half as tight as you should.
because ya other half is tangled in my bed seats.
and ya other half is complete within my mind & soul & body.
and ya other half is french toungin' me monday through friday.
im not fighting for joint custody.
im fighting for respect.
because ill never be content with being your back door hoe.
your something on the side. your something to do during lonely nights.
your closet freak. you will never reduce me to a skank or a whore.
& though i love you; id rather spend EVERY night crying on my bedroom floor then to EVER the THAT girl !
Toodlesss :) I love this songgg.
I've been lying, to keep you from this pain
Now your crying, and to know that I'm to blame
And I'll miss you' But its over now
I'm so sorry, that it had to be this way
Please don't hate me, but there's nothing you can say
To change my mind , I've got to go away
The guy that I fell for; He wanted more and more
Bye Bye Boyfriend
It's time that I'd be on my way
Bye Bye Boyfriend
I used to like the way you said
Baby back it up, lay down and work
It was fun but it couldn't last forever
Let me tell you how it was when we started off
The tattoos and the lip pierce and raggedy style you used to rock
Lately everything you do and say is messed up
Things have changed, down is up we're outta luck
Bye Bye Boyfriend
It's time that I'd be on my way
Time to pack it up
Baby 'cause its over now
You never put the effort in to the things that really counted
A word here, and a kiss there
Couldnt change the way its turning out
You work so hard at all the things I never cared about
How hands work & fingers moving, Eyes wide Shut
And baby I'm lonely
Though your right in front of me
You controlled me
That was the girl I used to be
Gave up myself
Well its over now
Bye Bye pretty boyfriend.
Now your crying, and to know that I'm to blame
And I'll miss you' But its over now
I'm so sorry, that it had to be this way
Please don't hate me, but there's nothing you can say
To change my mind , I've got to go away
The guy that I fell for; He wanted more and more
Bye Bye Boyfriend
It's time that I'd be on my way
Bye Bye Boyfriend
I used to like the way you said
Baby back it up, lay down and work
It was fun but it couldn't last forever
Let me tell you how it was when we started off
The tattoos and the lip pierce and raggedy style you used to rock
Lately everything you do and say is messed up
Things have changed, down is up we're outta luck
Bye Bye Boyfriend
It's time that I'd be on my way
Time to pack it up
Baby 'cause its over now
You never put the effort in to the things that really counted
A word here, and a kiss there
Couldnt change the way its turning out
You work so hard at all the things I never cared about
How hands work & fingers moving, Eyes wide Shut
And baby I'm lonely
Though your right in front of me
You controlled me
That was the girl I used to be
Gave up myself
Well its over now
Bye Bye pretty boyfriend.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
.......
Life is pretty good right now. I'm excited for alot of things going on.
Except the fact I chipped my damn tooth :\ damnit ! Lol.
Came to the conclusion; most females are pathetic & will do anything to see you fall..
Well damn bitch guess whatttt ?! NOT HAPPENIN' ;) So sucka dickkk.
Awwww Dj Am died.. I'm sadd he was the shiznittsss. That ruins my plans with ashley.
So much for having a nude bubble party with him... lmaaaooooo.
OH ! I was watching some shit on that model girl that was murdered..
yo that was dumbb sadddddd. Then the dude that did it killed himself ?!
Smh; fucking pussssyyyyy.
Anywayssss off to see a gooood frienddddd ;)
Toodlessss !!
Except the fact I chipped my damn tooth :\ damnit ! Lol.
Came to the conclusion; most females are pathetic & will do anything to see you fall..
Well damn bitch guess whatttt ?! NOT HAPPENIN' ;) So sucka dickkk.
Awwww Dj Am died.. I'm sadd he was the shiznittsss. That ruins my plans with ashley.
So much for having a nude bubble party with him... lmaaaooooo.
OH ! I was watching some shit on that model girl that was murdered..
yo that was dumbb sadddddd. Then the dude that did it killed himself ?!
Smh; fucking pussssyyyyy.
Anywayssss off to see a gooood frienddddd ;)
Toodlessss !!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
I feel you [Poem)
I may not know your name
Or know your situation
I may not know your pain
Or know the information
But I feel you none the less...And though we're different flesh
I look at you as you are me and hurt when you confess...
Confess that you cant sleep because the agony you feel
Confess that you cant eat because your family is ill
Confess that you cant weep because your strategy is still
To hold in all thats left to make the tragedy not real
You're battling to feel...
Bandaging to heal...
All the happiness that cant be with and damaging has killed
Ive been there and im still...exactly where you are
Under the clouds, the sun, the moon, this sadness and the stars
And though we may be far I feel you none the less
Our eyes have never met but its the heart that we connect
The problems that we share
The heart break and despair
I know life isnt fair but just know that someone cares
Someone you'll never near
Different face but same ol tear
I may not know your name but just know that I am here...
Your status set to "crying"
Your mood set to "sad"
Your main pic of you smiling
To the real world you seem glad
You shelter your emotions
Pretend that youre ok
When inside your heart is broken
For whatever made that way
For whatever paints you gray
Know the sky is always blue
Know the sun is always shining...shining just for you
Know that God is always watching
Know that you're not alone
Know that Heaven hears your voice...though it seems that no ones home
Tears will disappear
Frowns dont last forever
It took the clouds to go away for the sun to own the weather
So just know it will get better...And yes I know the world is cold so let hope be your sweater
Or know your situation
I may not know your pain
Or know the information
But I feel you none the less...And though we're different flesh
I look at you as you are me and hurt when you confess...
Confess that you cant sleep because the agony you feel
Confess that you cant eat because your family is ill
Confess that you cant weep because your strategy is still
To hold in all thats left to make the tragedy not real
You're battling to feel...
Bandaging to heal...
All the happiness that cant be with and damaging has killed
Ive been there and im still...exactly where you are
Under the clouds, the sun, the moon, this sadness and the stars
And though we may be far I feel you none the less
Our eyes have never met but its the heart that we connect
The problems that we share
The heart break and despair
I know life isnt fair but just know that someone cares
Someone you'll never near
Different face but same ol tear
I may not know your name but just know that I am here...
Your status set to "crying"
Your mood set to "sad"
Your main pic of you smiling
To the real world you seem glad
You shelter your emotions
Pretend that youre ok
When inside your heart is broken
For whatever made that way
For whatever paints you gray
Know the sky is always blue
Know the sun is always shining...shining just for you
Know that God is always watching
Know that you're not alone
Know that Heaven hears your voice...though it seems that no ones home
Tears will disappear
Frowns dont last forever
It took the clouds to go away for the sun to own the weather
So just know it will get better...And yes I know the world is cold so let hope be your sweater
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